Headache emerges - too much caffeine again. you know when you look back and think you should have done something differently. You know what's worse, looking back and wishing you had done something differently, but having the chance and no greater insight. Knowing you didn't figure anything out - and you'd make the same mistakes over again.
It's nice saying "well at least I learned something." There is nothing consoling in thinking - "man that stinks, but what else is new."
umm, that sounds confusing and a bit depressed. But I'm not - depressed that it! Confused - yes but mostly by what I just wrote. I believe I truly have a dizzying intellect.
You know life really looks like a big loop. I don't know if I want to grow up. I don't want to work, pay bills - it's soo boring, maybe I'll be a missionary, or marry rich!
jk.
you know the saying "it's not about having what you want, it's about wanting what you have." Man! i've been thinking about that. Do you really want to change what you want - that's who you are. True maybe that will never happen. I might never get the job i want, or go where I want to go blah blah, but at least it's an unhappy ME. or I could be a contented other me. uhhmm. I'll think about the most retarded things forever and never receive an epiphany. so really I'm wasting time. THAT'S RIGHT - GO BE PRODUCTIVE! ok i will! bye.
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so ur basically in one of those phasez where u think far too much and don't know what u want....or in my case who u r thank u very much.....and u think and think and drive urself and otherz crazy. yeah well, thatz where i am rite now. and for goodness sake, lay off the tea!!
We can all learn a lesson from the man with the marble stair. Eh?
Or was it a marble bath?
Well, whatever, you get the point.
Talking to yourself a little at the end there, huh? hehe. some think I talk to myself, but I dont, I am usually singing a song or making weird sounds effects if I am bored, not conversing with myself, lol.
I loved that public talk we had last saturday about education. Really made me think. Doing dual enrollment, I kinda have to figure out my major and what career field I want to go in and i am only 16. But the talk helped, made me realize I dont need to find a job that will be perfect for me, just something to support myself. Just something I thought about...
well I thint you solved all your questions this weekend
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ok well mabe it doesn't answer any big questions but it does show that you can be happy evan doing ichy work as long as you have friends and personality tests to talk about.
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